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This is from 07/17/2002
I just wanted to share some thoughts and hear from others on this very important topic.
I am 43 years old. I lost my lover 3 years ago as of the 22nd of this month and lost one of my best friends 10 days earlier. I found myself living in the bottom of a pizza box, the bottom of a fast food bag or the bottom of a 1/2 gallon container of ice cream or all three at the same time. I had gotten up to almost 300 lbs. I had become ashamed to go out with friends, could not walk up a single flight of stairs with out wheezing, and could not walk through a mall without taking a break because I was tired. Walking my beagle in the morning had become a chore instead of a pleasure.
I stood naked in front of the floor to ceiling mirror in my bathroom and was totally disgusted with what I saw. A stomach that looked like I was about to give birth. That crotch role that was threatening to cover my privates forever and an old mans flabby fat ass. A face that only a mother could love as long as she didn't have to look at it often.
I decided I wanted more out of life than work and sitting in the condo with my dog. I have a lot to offer to the world, my friends, and to a lover(in the future). I am doing this so I can dance 5 songs in a row and walk off the dance floor sweating but ready to go again. Walk my dog and enjoy the pace a beagle can set when he is excited about life!!!! To be excited about life myself, and start looking for the good things again. To possibly share my life and love with someone and have the energy to do it!!!! and that means sex also!!!!! To not be ashamed of my body. I never want to hear he has a cute face or carries his weight well again as long as I live!!!!!!!!! I want to have people say who is that hot man. I can do this and I will. I might not ever look like a colt model, but I will be damned if I am going to look like a before picture for a Richard Simmons tape.
This is for me and I am loving it. I have more energy in 5 weeks than I have had in 3 years. I am wearing clothes that I have not been able to get in in over a year. I am exercising and have a completely different out look on life already. Things will continue to get better and better. Who knows- there might be a man in my future because I will have the energy and the confidence to allow it to happen.
WW gives the tools, the group and the boards over at ww give the support. All I have to do is add determination and work!!!!!!!!! We can all do this and I, for one, plan to have a long and healthy life!!!!!!!!
This is from 08/16/2002
I have been on WW since 06/10/2002. In that time, I have lost 30.2 lbs. While that is a great thing and I am very proud of it, I am even prouder of the things I am learning. I am learning to make choices. It is my decision whether to eat through a bad day or mood or to go for a walk, swim or workout instead. I have been choosing the later and trust me just a couple of months ago, a bad day would have sent me to the grocery store and the ice cream aisle.
I am enjoying the changes I have made in my food and my routine. I love swimming and swimming laps in the morning not only helps melt the pounds away, but helps raise my metabolism and spirits for the entire day. I walk with a smile on my face- most of the time- and people have noticed. My coworkers ask me if I am in a hurry to get somewhere? They want to know what is up and as the weight loss has become noticeable, they are making comments. " You look great! Hey, Handsome. We want be able to see you if you lose much more. You are looking so much better and happier!" I have never been good at accepting compliments, but I make sure I respond with a smile and thank you every time.
This journey I have chosen will make it possible to have a wonderful life. I am learning to love myself again. Only when I love myself, am I truly able to love others. I find myself reaching out to friends and family even more than I have before. I want to share my happiness and have them in my life. I am no longer ashamed of how I look- well.. almost, but I am getting there. I am enjoying meeting new people and who knows, I might actually meet that special someone again.
I can never thank WW enough for giving me the tools to make these changes. I also will never be able to really show the people in my group, my leader, or the fabulous people on the boards how much their support and encouragement mean to me.
When you buy those veggies and bring them home, wash and cut them up and put them in the fridge in plastic containers. Much easier to avoid other temptations if the veggies are cleaned and ready to eat.
If you want something, drink some water first. wait 10 minutes. If you still want it, drink some more water and wait another 10 minutes. If after 20 minutes, you still want it see if something else will satisfy you. Like some 0 pt veggies or something low in points like fruit. If that does not work, go ahead and eat a small serving of what you are craving and journal the points.
This is a new lifestyle and we do not have to deny ourselves anything. The main thing is we are learning to make healthier choices and being honest about the choices we do make.
If it takes hanging a fat picture on every cabinet and the fridge to remind you why you are doing this, then do it!!!!!!!! I carry mine with me every where I go.
When stress starts building up, go for a walk!!!!! Go play with your dog or your neighbors dog( as long as it is not an attack dog!!!! LOL). If you have kids, take them outside and chase them with the water hose and laugh like a hyena at their antics.
I hope this helps a little!!!!!!! We can do this!!!!!!!!
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